I’ve passed my shooting and ippt. means tt i am more less confirm for NSI. cool or what. And my ORD date is definitely nearing very soon. 5 mths. what the hell am i gonna do. im seriously nt interested to study. I want to work to earn tt $$$ to go for my flying. it will either be my uptrend business, Cabin Crew or air traffic controller. I am so nt freaking out nw.

i never really like doing IPPT. I did mine today and felt as if I’m hit by a lorry.

Stand down call was made by my incharge and finally it was over! im glad its over as i couldnt take it anymore. my body clock is screwed up. bt nevertheless i enjoy the deployment. all those sharing of bull and cock stories from collouegues definitely made my deployment even enjoyable. i didnt know tt they were so gung-ho on …..

I saw the official APEC photos on the cover page of  SINGAPORE STRAITSTIMES. totally speechless. i am proud tt Singapore is the official organiser for this APEC 2009. but after seeing the photos on the cover page….uurggh,… not only i’ll vomit blood, i’ll vomit shit too. lets compare the photos taken from the various previous APEC.

With the exception of singapore’s version, The photos were nicely taken. Especially those with nice backdrops and most importantly the costumes the leaders wore.

My baju kurung definitely looks 100 times better than tt  ’singapore’ outfit .

I’m gg for a Backpacking trip!

SG – KL – Chengdu – Lhasa – Everest Base Camp – Kathmandu – SG

I nid a good camera to capture the awesome panaromic views!

i went to Changi T1 to send my bro off for his Mt Kinabalu Expedition. exchanged small convo wif mr kwok, mr helmi and some SP juniors. e expedition group had a ‘circle’ talk/ briefing session where they will talk bout the objective of their trip blah blah blah. i felt so overwhelming listening to their pre-departure discussion.  I can sense their burning desire to scale the mountain. I had always enjoy gg for overseas trips with friends. the companion and bond forged during any trip is jus boomz. haha.

i missed SP days. in particular all those overseas trips!

mental breakdown.

im really scared.

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it has been almost 2 weeks since i started live FX trading. I lost a total of $500.  in a matter of fact i lost more than tt amount as i actually did won approx $200.  I have to start gg bac to e FX classes. I nid more coaching. most of the losses i made was because i entered at the market at the wrong time. gosh.

i dreamt that a b747 crashed just aft taking-off from the runway at changi airport.

i dont know if i can succeed but i want to give it a go.

can i really achieve it?

i am really scared. its feels like i am running out of time.

the path is filled with obstacles.

im tired. seriously.

others might laugh at me.

its my dream tt keeps me moving forward.

and so aft 4 mths since i wrote tt letter….

I have passed out from TRACOM and did my family proud by receiving the Sword of Merit. I missed OCT training days. I managed to be posted to APD with much delight. i have a great office with an awesome view of the airport and runway.

I didnt sign up for my bachelors but went for a forex course instead. I felt that i would rather save tt $20K to fund for my Flying course in the future. However, i do fear for my future….. fear tt i would not achieve my dreams.

But I would not give up without giving it a try.