helpless

im feeling lost. extremely lost. confused at the same time.

i was sure of  what i am gonna do for this coming 2-3 yrs.

bt everything went blank nw. im seriously feeling hopeless. it is jus one of those days when u felt like u r e ultimate loser.

n it was my turn today.

even though i was enlightened further bout the path to be a pilot in SINGAPORE at least and met my class mate from the ATP theory class, im feeling bad now. seriously.

n that my past failure gonna haunt me more n perhaps forever.

god. help me. i really do need this. the feeling is terrible. i seriously want this. omg.