risk

after 3 yrs, my passion and drive in chasing the dream is as strong as ever or perhaps crazier. I took the risk. A huge one which includes forgoing my degree programme at the moment. I will just have to hope and pray for the best. I believe that  I have to do something bout this agony.  and i just couldnt afford to just sit there doing nth hoping for things to put in place. a miracle in fact. Although it cost me $$$$.  i signed it up without much hesitation .Its either make or break.

i can feel it. i have already taken the first step and the last step will be the time when i crossed that finishing line. Many people failed because they stop chasing the dream. U have to finish the race to complete the race.

i believe i have recovered.

give me one year.

i find it hard to take….

Mad World
Gary Jules (cover of Tears for Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying
Are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It’s a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.

it simply sums up what im gg thru nw.

helpless

im feeling lost. extremely lost. confused at the same time.

i was sure of  what i am gonna do for this coming 2-3 yrs.

bt everything went blank nw. im seriously feeling hopeless. it is jus one of those days when u felt like u r e ultimate loser.

n it was my turn today.

even though i was enlightened further bout the path to be a pilot in SINGAPORE at least and met my class mate from the ATP theory class, im feeling bad now. seriously.

n that my past failure gonna haunt me more n perhaps forever.

god. help me. i really do need this. the feeling is terrible. i seriously want this. omg.

long hours

i had my longest meeting ever in my history of MEETINGS. started at 230 and ended till 830.

nevertheless, it was worth it.

i might possibly have the best post in NS.

stress-ed.

i want this. i want that. i want this. i want that.

im freaking out. visiting the ACU website didnt help at all.

 and in one of the straitstimes advert today,

FIND OUT HOW TO BECOME AN AIRLINE PILOT IN JUST 18 MONTHS.

How? application for my degree is this july. how?